The BIG B.S, Flag!!!

So as an avid celebrity news/ tabloid reader... I have come to accept that some things are fact while others are a mere illusions.

Nothing can hit the nail on the head more so then the article featured in this weeks "Star Magazine" featuring Nadya Suleman - Octomom.

As I sat at the kitchen table this morning, reading this article... thoughts of doubt and curiosity ran rapidly through my head.

This woman is saying she had NO surgeries what's so ever to get back to 120 lbs!!

That might be fine and dandy... but you cannot tell me that she did not have a tummy tuck. She was carrying 8 babies!! And I personally know about skin sag and I only had twins. Not to mention the dreaded "c-section pouch."

Oh and STRETCH MARKS!! There are no stretch marks. Really? LOL. She credits the disappearance of stretch marks to special creams that have growth hormones in it to stimulate collagen production. Heck, if that is the case get me a jug!!

And is it me or does her belly button look fake?

So in a year she went from this:

To that.

Now, I am not saying she doesn't look better... I am just saying BE HONEST about how you got there.

-Disgruntled mom of 3 w/ the stretch marks, loose skin and c-section to prove it

ACAI Berry and Cleanse Diets

As the sun starts warming the earth with hugs I start to realize that summer is on it's way.

Before you know it, it's going to be 100 degrees!! Shorts, and sun dresses will fill my wardrobe but embarrasement will fill my mind.

I am 5'2'' and about 175lbs!! Yes folks, if you use a BMI calculator I am obese. Do I look "obese"... no I don't think so. I wear a size 10/12, which I guess isn't that big. But it is bigger then I want to be.

I would LOVE to be a 4 again!!

For years, I wore a 0/2 so you can imagine the shock when I bought a pair of jeans that were a 12.

I am done crying. But I am not done wishing I had the same body I had when I was in my late teens/ early 20's. I am tired of hearing my weight compared to what it used to be from my family. I know they aren't saying it to be mean or inconsiderate. They are worried and see these HORRIBLE changes.

Now, a little background. I have PCOS which tends to make people hold weight no matter what. I should really limit my carb intake because of PCOS and I really have been.

But no matter what I do, I gain weight.

When I was pregnant with Alexandra and Grayson, I gain 19 lbs.

After giving birth to them, I was 153. Man, what I would give to be 153 again!! Now, mind you, I have increased my activity and I think I am eating healthier... yet I have gained 20+ lbs in 14 months!!

All of these Acai Berry & Cleanse diets/ advertisements intrigue me. I wish I knew if they TRULY worked. Boy, I would do it in a heart beat if I knew they did.

How I wish I could wear shorts this summer... or even better... How I wish I could stop deleting pictures of myself with my babies because I look FAT!!!